Here are the deepest secrets that no one knows. My name is Katie Ann. Most call me Kahe. You can call me whatever you'd like. You may not know it yet, maybe you’ll never even think about it. You’re going to meet a lot of girls throughout your life, and maybe a lot of them will be special to you, but I’m telling you right now; you’ll never find another me. Writing: My only passion and my first priority. Jesus: I love Him because He first loved me. Public Speaking: What I want to do with my life. Psalm 139:14- I will praise the Lord for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Single;; but not looking. Wake up. You’re pulling at my hair again. I can feel your finger tips digging in as you attempt to breathe silently. I feel so alive. You’re biting my lip harder and harder by the second as if it would serve the purpose of biting your tongue but nothing seems to hold back in this life. Holding back and chaining down is yet again, only an illusion. Break the letters off of every word and there is an idea behind it. The beads of sweat are trickling down your eye lids as you continue to concentrate yourself in this suspended moment. We live in a world of two languages: Literal and Idyllic. The latter of which is apparent to those who truly live in the moment. It lies in the collective aura of emotion and true expression. Please approach me. You won’t know the difference. I am hiding behind this smile and the warm charismatic façade of life. I am the observer and the contemplator.

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This is from August 2011.

We didn’t know how bad things were getting yet. We had no idea how horrible they were becoming. We knew we loved each other, but we had no comprehension just how strong that love was. Things fell apart a little over a month after this picture was taken. 

Looking back at pictures from our time together, I can now see how the love died from our eyes. I can see how badly I was hurting you, see just how far I was pushing you away. I never realized that the damage I was causing you emotionally and physically was going to push you away to someone else. I never realized you would go looking for what I wasn’t giving you; love and affection.

Although I should have known, shouldn’t I? I mean, afterall, I was doing the exact same thing. I was still holding on to the guy I had been with before you, because with him and I we never actually had a chance to make things work. Even though I had been trying for five years, we never had a chance to let our love grow into something more than a lovesick fantasy. I let him back in my life, as what I believed at first to be just friends. Yet I started to let him get to me emotionally, and that was when things began falling apart. 

Every time I would get angry at you, even if it was for the most minuscule of things, I would turn to him. I began to think maybe I rushed out of things with him too quickly, maybe if things weren’t working out with you maybe it would work out with him.

It took almost a year for us to finally fall apart.

Yet that was exactly what we needed.

Now here we are, over two years after we began our long journey together. And after everything we’ve been through, I love you now more than I ever have before. Sometimes things have to fall apart so that better things can fall together, and that’s exactly what happened. A great future with someone never comes with a perfect past, and I believe now that we can put everything behind us and continue growing strong and stronger every single day. In love, in happiness, and ultimately towards a great future together. We had a rocky foundation to start us off, but it’s smooth sailing from here on out babe. I love you. Always, and forever. <3



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